RIP Steve Jobs (by elizabethscakeemporium)
a piece…
So this whole “Blogging” thing is completely new to me and i don’t even know where to begin. I always wanted to do something like this, express myself in every way humanly possible. A certain individual has inspired me enough to do so, and made me realize that we are all going through the same things and sometimes can take life for granted but that having a positive outlook on things, including life is possible. I am in no means using this as a negative tool, I simply just want to share my thoughts and life journey with everyone in hopes that some people can relate in every which way possible.
To be honest I was never the most positive person and would always find something negative about the best situation and hated that about myself, i guess you could say at times i was my own worst enemy. I wanted nothing more but to live a positive life and never have a single negative thought in my mind and it seems to be a lot easier said than done. I wanted the change but just didn’t know how to go about it or where to even start. I wanted a bigger appreciation for life in itself. I’ve never been the type of person to sit and vent or express myself 100% to anyone or anything, I don’t think one single person will ever know me completely because of this and hope that one day someone will.
My family and friends mean the world to me and at times they may not think so or realize it, but they mean a lot more to me than any blog could ever explain. They are all the reason i am who i am today. I’ll be the first one to admit the i love you’s and such don’t come as easily as they should but I’d be lost without them.
Like everyone, I have had them moments where you basically get life thrown at you and are expected to handle it the best you can, which i haven’t. I’ve always made excuses for myself about how i handled things, wether it was for my actions, choices or overall outlook on things. I always had a reason for everything, guess it was my way of making myself believe what i wanted to believe, truth or not.
Being human I’ve dealt with and have had my share of happiness, heartache, loss of a loved one, stress etc and to think the happiness would make us appreciate what and who we have to share it, but its actually the heartache that opens our eyes to what and who we have right in front of us and then sometimes unfortunately it’s to late to do so. I myself am just finally learning how to appreciate everyone and everything, even life a lot more and to have a much more positive outlook on things, wether times are rough or not and hope that i can stick with it.
As corny as this will seem to some, it is an absolutely amazing feeling to get all the thoughts running around your brain and words from your heart out and let people see who you really are. Too those who know me that will read this, i hope you can now say you know me that much better, for this is just a piece…
Lauren
